2005 Summertime...

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Family
Current mood:crazed & overwhelmed

My father drives me freaking nuts, up the wall, stark raving bananas, gibbering, foaming at the mouth crazy.I cannot deal with it when someone who has no industry experience and no concept of my actual day to day life starts giving me advice (ie: orders) about what I need to do to be successful.And when presented with a logical reason for why that wouldn't work the response is, "Don't argue with me."I love my father, I really do, and I am truly grateful for everything he has and is doing to help me out, but why do parents insist on trying to exert control over their adult, commen-sense having, not stupid children?

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Torn...
Current mood:mmmph

on one hand I just want to vent my spleen, bitch, bitch, bitch, I have a summer cold, blah! On the other hand I don't want to be negative because maybe if I can purge all the negative emotion it will purge the bad humours from my system.Nah...I'm just gonna sit and wallow in my own bile. I'm reveling in the grumpiness. Loving the poutiness that is me right now. Feeling totally anti-social and I think I am ok with that.

Friday, August 05, 2005

Heaven forbid...
Current mood:Blah

Heaven forbid that I should actually post a blog when I am feeling upbeat. No, I only feel like posting when I am needy, tired, cranky, feelin' chubby or whatnot.

On a side note, I hate the phrase "whatnot" very bad association, no idea why I was compelled to actually use it in a sentence.

But, back to business, where was I? Oh yes, feeling off, not quite right, had a crappy workout today, car is broken, just wanting to vent all my bile and discontent. Grouch, grouch, bitch, bitch, bitch. So that really didn't do much for my mood, but at least I am expressing myself.

Anybody want to brighten my day with some exciting news? Though I can't guarentee that I will be happy for you. I might just secretly resent you and sit here muttering to myself how unfair life is, but it is worth a shot.


Sunday, July 03, 2005

Sigh...
Current mood:Moody

Home from work, gradually winding down towards oblivion. Are we born cynical? Was I always antisocial or did I learn it on the Los Angeles freeway? Or maybe in the customer service industry? I crave inspiration, laughter, stillness, sweetness, melancholy music.Probably my blood sugar is low, I haven't eaten in a while.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Gotta find that Zen place
Current mood:little bit lost

Contemplating a new job offer, probably not a step up, but a step sideways. Maybe a positve change, quite possibly a total disaster.Finished an acting class, starting a new one.Started a total body makeover on Monday, but too impatient for the final result. Why can't I just snap my fingers and transform myself?I feel like I am stuck in a holding pattern, as though each new thing will catapult me to the next level and when it doesn't I have to scramble for a new solution. The right combination must exist. Does anyone have a map?

Friday, June 17, 2005

Overwhelmed by the Universe

Suddenly there are so many decisions to be made. I love that there are options, but I feel as though I had better learn how to juggle really quick. AND the ever present question, money or art? Ok, so that isn't even really a question, but the money just looks so tempting sometimes. I just wish I could sleep while there is still time to do so.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

oohkay
Current mood: restless

I seem to be a permanent inhabitant of my restless self. Only now I can't switch cities to kick it cause I have reached my eventual destination. Grrrrr...Want to Rumpus! But I would settle for finishing my to do list.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Need to make Something Happen...
Current mood:disturbed

Sublime frustration. I am spending way to much time in places I don't want to be thinking about stuff I need to get done to get to be in the place I do want to be and in the end going nowhere except to bed.

ungh...

Saturday, April 23, 2005

Current mood: apathetic

Should be going to sleep now, worked all night, but I am so tired of sleeping all day. So much to do. Grocery shopping, laundry, having a life. If I can just get through 1 more night of work. But I don't wanna work! Ok done whining. Guess I'll go to bed.

Bad idea

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Current mood:crazed

Ok so drinking wine and searching high school classmates is probably not a good idea, but... I spent the last seven days at work and will continue to do so for god only knows how long. At home trying to convince the love of my life that I like being poor without a safety net because we are chasing the dream, damn it. And it will all be worth it someday. It takes 10 years to be an overnight sucess.

It is exhausting being this fing positive all the time!

So I have a glass of wine and check out the General Hospital message board. Those bitches are crazy, and ABC replaced my favorite character with a transvestite (I SWEAR to everything holy) and it is just to much to deal with.

12 of 12 August 2008

It's 12 of 12! I haven't done this since last November. No excuse, I always forget to bring the camera with me, and then it is 10pm before I remember again.

12 of 12 is the brainchild of Chad Darnell, thank you Chad!

Today is also mine and Will's 6th anniversary. The plan is to drive up to Malibu for a 6 mile hike, run home and get all pretty before we head out for a fancy dinner, maybe Stinking Rose because Will loves the garlic.

9:00 am

When Will got up this morning to brush his teeth, this is what he found in the bathroom...

After a very slow start, a stop at the grocery store for picnic food and a very long drive, we got to the trail head and reviewed what poison oak looks like.

This is what kitties stuck in trees feel like. It was a little difficult getting up the cliff, and then I was stuck.

Closer look at me stuck at the top of the cliff.

A cell phone tower! I cannot even begin to tell you how happy I was. I needed to check and to see if my agent called about the callback I had yesterday, but there was no signal. Then we got to the top of the cliff, and what do you know! Service! Actually the only spot with service on the 4 hour hike.

I graffiti ed a little, it was a special day! I know graffiti is shitty, but it was just a little one...

After we hiked (mostly crawled) up the backside of the hill, we came down and discovered there were stairs to the top.

The "Split Rock" in a shady little oak grove where we stopped for a picnic.

After our picnic, we got momentarily lost (and possibly walked through 3 varieties of poison oak) we stumbled on a lady bug nest(?) Not sure if lady bugs actually nest, but it was a whole bunch of ladybugs in one spot, a pack?

We found the trail again, but somehow managed to take the wrong turn at the end of the hike and ended up hiking up the road back to where we left our car. This is Will's unhappy lost face. I wasn't actually sure that I was leading us the right direction but he didn't need to know that.

Finally home, cleaned up (we were a mess!) I checked the mail and found a bill that arrived today, which is as we know 8/12/08, but the due date on the bill...
Masters of efficiency!

After all of that we discovered we lacked the energy to leave the house again. So we had Indian food delivered. MMMmmmmm curry.

I had to rewrite my actress blog, because being a smart aleck is not cool in a "professional" bio. I was pissy, because I feel like a bio for a creative career should be creative. But apparently the "media doesn't like funny.

I had to add in my own personal "bonus" picture. It is my new screen saver. Will hates it. But I can't help it, I am a Bamber Bunny. Cookie! Yummy!

I feel a little monosyllabic today. Could be loss of IQ from dehydration. That hike was killer.

New Reel!

Twisted

I'm a little disturbed at the popularity of the "antihero" I've been watching Weeds, I love The Riches and tonight I watched Dexter for the first time. I haven't watched Rescue Me, the Sopranos or The Shield, but from what I hear they too glorify the underbelly of humanity.

Don't get me wrong, I love my shows. I have the biggest girl crush on Mary Louise Parker. But I feel like I should feel bad for wanting my favorite characters to get away with it. Plus, what effect will this have on younger generations? Hey, if everyone's favorite characters can do whatever the hell they want without any serious or lasting consequence...

Om another note, I REALLY want a donut right now. Krispy Kreme, powdered sugar, blueberry filled mmmmmm

12 of 12

Happy Birthday to Chad! It is that time again. 12 of 12...I had a really weird day. I kept forgeting to take the camera or when I did remember to grab the camera I left it in the car. So half of my pictures were taken on my cell phone. But those taken on my camera are in focus for the first time ever, thanks to Helen in the UK. Thank you, Helen! And here it is...

10am - contemplating my warm cozy bed and my fat little Heidi cat, trying to decide if I should get back in bed or go to yoga. Also making a mental note that I really need to launder the bedding later.


11:30am - I decided to go to yoga. About halfway through some guy drove by the park and started yelling at us. wanted to know why we didn't go to the gym. I love outside yoga, it is always an adventure.
1:15pm - back at the house, Will was napping on the floor in front of the tv, sadly my knees popped really loudly when I got down in front of him to take the picture and he managed to cover his face before I could get it. Brat!

2:00pm - Laundry! 3 full loads, it has been way too long, but the laundry room is 2 flights down and a pain in the butt. I suppose it could be worse...at least we have a laundry room.

3:00 - Left the dryer duty to Will so that I could finish up my workout, I needed at least 30 minutes more cardio, yoga is good but just doesn't really satisfy the need to sweat. And a fantastic 30 minutes it was, because the guy on the stairmaster behind me had a little gas problem, and when I say little, I mean it was so bad I had to fan my face with my book and almost flee the room . Seriously, if you are going to do something like that in a room full of people breathing deeply, well...just DON'T!

7:00pm - After the gym, it was a quick shower and then we raced down to Huntington Beach for a preview screening of the newest Battlestar Galactica.

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Battlestar, but I could write a whole seperate blog about what we saw tonight. I could get a foaming at the mouth rant going, but I have an 8:30 am appointment to do the stairs in Santa Monica, so I am going to control myself. (Even if it kills me)

9:15pm - After the show, California Pizza Kitchen, where I proceeded to undo all the good working out I did today, dammit!

10pm - The final nail in my coffin, Key Lime Pie, and also my copy of Bradbury's "The Illustrated Man" which I finished in the theater waiting for Razor to start. I haven't actually read alot of Bradbury, mostly just his short stories, "Martian Chronicles", etc, but he writes some really depressing stories.

10:45pm - Back home, Will felt the need to torment Callie, just because he can.

11:00pm - I am telling myself that by going onto nowcasting for 5 minutes late at night I actually did something for my career today, even if it was a only a little tiny effort. 11:05 - Watching Desperat Housewives, on the internet, wondering if I should not watch Desperate Housewives on the internet anymore, at least until the writers are getting their fair share. Chad?
and of course, I can never sit at the computer without Gus Gus sharing my chair with me. Cute little pain in the fanny that he is.

The kitties would be most grateful if I would get up and feed them now (you can also get a better idea of Gus Gus's idea of sharing a chair, I get the edge, he gets the chair)
Slow day today, but Disneyland tommorow with Mom, 3 of my sisters and all the nephews!