2005 Autumn and Winter

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Home

Just flew in from Florida. I feel like hell, so tired and totally overwhelmed. Tragically my formerly future father in law (republican nudist) found out I was a liberal on this trip and I have been booted from the family. On a brighter note Will's mom welcomed me with open arms...WTF?!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

DAMMIT ALL TO FIERY F**KING HELL!
Current mood: bitchy

I get home at noon after having been up all night at work then having to drive to fucking Torrance for an audition and then there is no fucking parking because they are having a fucking Christmas festival and best of all my living room is flooded by really bad, out of tune, couldn't hit the right pitch if it landed on their face and wiggled, asshole with a microphone. And all I want to do is get some sleep.I hate my neighborhood.And Bah fucking Humbug!

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Hmmph... Current mood:I'm just not sure

I just don't know what to do with myself. I should be sleeping, or working. I should be doing anything except fucking around on the damn computer. I'm trying to decide between 3 photographers. All are too damn expensive. And I don't have a strong enough inclanation one way or another. But I do have a feeling that I will regret not picking the one I don't end up with.This makes no sense, I know. Get off my back, i'm tired.And apparently defensive for no reason. I'm just afraid I'm missing out on something. Not just photos, but something else that I can't put my finger on.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

I want...

Some peace and quiet!!!!Please, please, why is it so hard to just find a little downtime? I keep thinking I'm going to have a nice laid back week and then it all goes to hell in a handbasket.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Yay!
Current mood: pleased

I got Goonies on dvd AND I got the Muppet Show. I am having a happy little nostalgia party and eating tofuti cuties. It really doesn't get much better than this.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Urban Legend

Apparently the bit about too many carrots turning you orange is actually true.How do I know this, you ask?I just spent the morning at the dr's office to have her tell me that the yellowish tint to my hands and feet is not a liver problem but from too much carrot juice.fan-fucking-tastic!I'm not allowed to eat any orange vegatables for a month. That means no pumpkin pie at Thanksgiving. Just kill me now.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Odd...
Current mood:dizzy

I feel remarkably refreshed for having just worked all night.

I am inhabiting some strange inbetween place. I know that I have many, many, very important things to do this week and yet I cannot seem to think of a single one of them right now.

I met the most remarkably pompous person last night. I must have stood there with the most stupidified look on my face for at least a good 10 minutes as he pontificated on his wonderfulness, the wonderfulness of his other job, how important he is (he even threw in a whacking off reference, which I find somewhat funny since he was verbally whacking off at the time). And of course it wasn't until he walked away that I thought of asking him, "If you are such hot poo, why in the hell are you working here?"

I know why I'm here and it certainly isn't for the "glamour and prestige" You probably have to see where I work to really understand, but just trust me when I say it is about as far from glamourous as a hotel can get without being a motel.

Though now that I think about it I realized that he was probably overcompensating. I know that sometimes when I meet someone for the first time I feel an inexplicable need to talk myself up, even though my head is saying "STOP IT! You sound like a total ass!" And yet I just keep talking knowing that I am making the worst possible impression.

I just noticed that I used the word "remarkably" twice in the first two paragraphs of this blog, hahaha, I have had WAY too much coffee and since I still have to force myself to do a workout this morning I am probably going to need more before I can go to bed.

I had better stop now, I think my self edit button is broken today and I don't want to dig myself in any deeper.

OK, just one more random observation. I found that song "My Humps" offensive the first time I heard it, but then I found out it was a Black Eye Peas song and now I actually enjoy it. I hope it is because I think that it was done tongue in cheek, whereas if it had been any other artist I think it would have been meant seriously in which case it is just icky.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Weekly Bitch Fest...
Current mood: discontent

What? You thought I was gonna blog about something perky and happy?

That would be really out of character for me. I speak when I'm happy, I write when I'm not.

I don't really have anything of particular importance to say, I just wanted to vent my spleen a little. I'm waiting for Lost to start. I thought it was on at 8, but it isn't on till 9 and for some reason that really chaps my fanny. I waited all afternoon, thinking, "I get to watch Lost!" And when I turned the channel George Lopez was on, dammit. Not that I really have any reason to be upset, it's not like I missed it, I just have to wait another hour, but still it bugs me.Saturday,

October 01, 2005

sigh...
Current mood: cranky

Don't know quite what is going on with me lately. So busy with rehearsal, trying to work out, trying to lose even more weight, putting in overtime at work. I wanted to be busy, but now all I want is to have my free time back.

Actually I think that while I am busy with rehearsal and very, very happy to be acting, I am so tired of all the other everyday distractions and necessities intruding. But what are you going to do? Me personally, for now I'm going to have a little pity party just for myself, maybe I will share it with Will in a little bit. And tomorrow I'm going to kick my own ass for being such a whiner.