My sister told me she is having another baby earlier tonight.

It was like my world just paused for a moment. My axis tilted. It was like a pendulous weight that heaved up out of it's cradle, for just a split second and then settled back into place.

It isn't for me. I chose my course. There is this burning frustration. To DO something. To accomplish something. I have to stop wishing for somone to set me on my path. I have to find it for myself.